Grief

Isn't our God amazing? Even in our worst hours, He is there for us. My Grandfather passed away Saturday night. And it was the most peaceful death I could have imagined. I can't imagine him passing any other way. God's hand truly was orchestrating every second of it. He spent the entire day in labored breathing and unable to interact with us. But by the grace of God we all got to lay on the bed and he would try to hug us. Towards the end of his life we began putting on his favorite music. His favorite song has always been The Old Rugged Cross by Ernest Tubb. He had been unable to talk to us all day or even respond to our questions. When The Old Rugged Cross came on we all began singing to him. He tried to sit up and sing it and right at the end of the chorus, he just simply died. It was very painless and peaceful. We are going to have a beautiful service for him on Saturday and I am going to try and play Amazing Grace on the piano for him. Thank you everyone for your prayers and love. I and my family have truly felt it pouring in.
Donald Thomas Underhill
R.I.P. 1923-2009

Grief

I hate saying goodbye. Until recently I didn't really have a problem with it. Then my close friend Dustin came back into my life. Dustin's in the Marines, and I hardly ever get to see him. In September I saw him for the first time in three months. And I just got done seeing him again. And both times when I left him my grief was so profound, I could actually feel it in my chest. He's the one person I can turn to for everything. He will always be there for me. And in nine months he goes overseas. I'm terrified. He just found the Lord and I'm thrilled for that. But I am having a really hard time leaning on the Lord through this. It's almost like I don't want to feel better. But driving back today a song came on the radio that made me realize that my life is much more than how I'm feeling currently. So even though I don't want to lean on God for this, we need to. We need to take Christ off the cross and put him back on the throne.