Grief

I hate saying goodbye. Until recently I didn't really have a problem with it. Then my close friend Dustin came back into my life. Dustin's in the Marines, and I hardly ever get to see him. In September I saw him for the first time in three months. And I just got done seeing him again. And both times when I left him my grief was so profound, I could actually feel it in my chest. He's the one person I can turn to for everything. He will always be there for me. And in nine months he goes overseas. I'm terrified. He just found the Lord and I'm thrilled for that. But I am having a really hard time leaning on the Lord through this. It's almost like I don't want to feel better. But driving back today a song came on the radio that made me realize that my life is much more than how I'm feeling currently. So even though I don't want to lean on God for this, we need to. We need to take Christ off the cross and put him back on the throne.